But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you.
Psalm 5:11
Prayers are life changing.
Last night, after I posted about my bleeding, I had another scary thing occur. We decided to monitor Asher's heart with all that occurred just for about 30 minutes or so. He was doing amazing for about 25 minutes, but the his heart began to drop in the 70 to 80 range. Right away my amazing night nurse came in and she and I worked on changing positions to see if he was compressing his cord. It seemed forever that his little heart was down in that range as my heart was full of anxiety. After 3 minutes, his heart was back up. It was relieving. Since that occurred though, I was put on IV fluid and they contacted the doctor. The IV was to help build fluid over night because they thought maybe the loss of blood/fluid earlier may have caused the cord to have a less amount of fluid around it for cushion.
After the nurse talked to the doctor, she came back in and said that I was only allowed ice chips and no food or drink in case heart would dip again and wouldn't increase and I would need a csection. It was scary to hear that because James was working, and even though he was only 15 minutes away, I was worried he wouldn't make it back in time if the scenario happened.
I called James to let him know, and he reminded me to stay strong and stay calm. I messaged my mom, dad, and sister and they began praying hard. It melted my heart when my dad told me he was saying a Rosary while Easton slept in his lap. I also messaged Jane, my close teaching friend for her prayers because her grandson was born early and she knew the scares I was facing. It was a God Moment I did because she told me that she would do the Divine Mercy Chaplet for me. Each night before I fall to sleep, that is the Rosary I do. It brings me peace. But tonight with everything and being pluggesd in, I didn't get a chance to pray it, and it was bothering me because I really needed it at that moment. God works in beautiful ways in He knew how much that prayer means to me, that Jane was saying it for me without knowing that was the prayer I needed the most. It just gave me heartwarming chills that out of all of the prayers, she picked that one!
Jane then told me to remember the verses that I go by and just keep saying them to bring me the comfort I needed. "Cast all your anxiety on God." " Do not be scared, God is with you wherever you go." "For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord, not to harm you, but to prosper you, give you hope and a future." "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." These quotes I focused on, along with the pictures of Jesus and Josh who were right with me, and the one of Easton whose smile reassured me Asher and I would be okay.
It was an uncomfortable night as I couldn't lie comfortable as I had monitor belts on my belly and and IV in my arm. However, I managed to get some sleep and was glad when I heard James enter my door. I had to awake and use the restroom several times with the nurses help as I was plugged in to several things. However. I was relieved to not see anymore blood.
I woke up this morning around 7:30 and thanked God Asher and I made it through the bumpy night and brought us another day of sunshine outside our window. Yes, I was feeling anxiety last night, but I did my best to remain calm because God and Josh and all of the Angels and Saints were with me. And I know God's plan is the most beautiful and he would hold my hand. Nothing is impossible with Him! It is the scary times that allow me to cling even closer to Him and I can feel Him near me.
Dr. FitzPatrick just came in and told me the plan. I can eat breakfast, but I will be monitored 2 hrs before each meal to be sure all is fine and that way if delivery is needed, I wouldn't have just ate a meal. His concern is the placenta could have come unattached, so he is ordering me an ultrasound to check the placenta as that is how Asher gets his nutrients. So, they will just keep a close watch on me, and if something would happen I would go into delivery.
Like the daily Bible verse says, through trust in God, He will protect you and bring you joy. He is protecting Asher and me, and He is always here protecting us. I could let fear get the best of me and lose hope. But I won't. My faith and trust are in God, and no matter what I know Asher and I will stay strong because God is right with us.
I ask that you continue to pray for us as prayer is life changing! Look how far Asher has got! Let us stick together with God, Josh, and all of the Angels and Saints in this fight! God is right here and will bring joy out of this fight because He is a Miraculous God. I love all of you and I love God above all things!
Just wanted to share this quote one of my best friends sent me this morning to bring me comfort. Thank you Alison for the amazing friend you are!
Jenna,
ReplyDeleteContinue to stay strong! God has a plan, and He will be right beside you, carrying you and Asher along the way. I'm praying extra hard for you today. Thank you for keeping us all updated.
Love,
Ali
Thinking and praying hard for you and sweet baby Asher!
ReplyDeleteYour welcome Jenna:) Glad to be your best friend and that this quote helped you as you needed it! You are such a strong person and I know God will get you through all of this and has great plans for Asher and all of you!!
ReplyDeleteLove,
Alison