God Stands By Me

The Lord stood by me and gave me strength.

After a rough day yesterday with consistent contractions, I did my best to get some rest over night. I had consistent contractions over night, but weren't as strong. They kept the monitors on me all night and gave bags of IV fluid to help possibly slow or stop the contractions.

I woke up this morning and still had low muscle pain, but didn't feel as many contractions. The ones I had were not near as strong. God was truly watching over me and calmed my storm. Your prayers surrounded me and wiped away my anxiety. Sometimes we face those days that seem to say... be ready, and hold on. That is what I did. I couldn't lose faith and fall out of my strong boat. God was with me and I trusted Him wherever he would lead Asher and me. And here He blessed me and Asher again with another day to fight with less contractions. I couldn't be more grateful and all my praise is lifted up to Him for His unending grace.

After only eating oatmeal, chicken noodle soup, and orange jello yesterday, I got to enjoy applesauce and oatmeal this morning. My new day nurse entered and told me that my high risk doctor would be seeing me and wanted to exam me further. He wanted to check my cervix and see if my discharge had any sign of bacteria that could cause an infection. She also mentioned how my night nurse was concerned that my discharge may have a different odor which could be a sign of infection....which ends up being a funny story that James won't hear the end of from the nurses and doctors lol.

It started last night when I noticed my night nurse taking out my bathroom trash, which wasn't that full. Then she brought in a orange scented spray and sprayed a whole bunch in the bathroom. I just was like okay lol. She then asked me if I noticed any funky smell with my fluid. I said no, but it was funny because when I exited the bathroom door, I did notice a fishy smell. She said that she smelled it to, so that is why she did all she did and would tell the doctor in the morning to check. I then went to bed, and when I woke up, I told James about it. He then said, "I bet you are smelling the opened tuna fish can in the trash from when I made my supper." It made perfect sense and made me laugh. So I told my day nurse and she then informed my doctor.
When I entered another room for my exam, my doctor laughed and said tuna huh? So now they keep picking on James for it!

During my exam, my doctor first checked my cervix. It was a beautiful blessing that it was still closed. He then checked for any bacteria in my discharge. God had sent me another blessing as my doctor said it looked clear so said should be no bacteria. So, he told me with fewer contractions I could get off IV fluids during the day, eat as I was, and go back to normal monitoring. If they would peak up again, I would have to fall back to same routine as yesterday.

When I left the exam room, I enjoyed my little trip back to my room and sent more praise to God for keeping Asher and me strong and safe. He is so amazing! I then got back in the monitor, even though I didn't have to right then. With still having occasional contractions, I just felt more comfortable staying on as long as they are present. I then ordered lunch which I looked forward to as I haven't had a full meal in over a day. It was again one of those moments that made me grateful for the gift of food, which many in our world only dream of having. How truly fortunate we are, and again how much it makes me want to donate a huge supply of food to the food bank.

After eating lunch, my mother and father in-law visited as they were returning from their vacation. Then a few moments later, my mom and Easton arrived. I enjoyed spending time with them as it relaxed my mind. Easton was bashful at first, but then returned to his funny self in minutes. I loved the hug and kiss he gave Asher and me. It made my day!

A little while later, James arrived back from doing laundry and mowing back at home. Easton was excited to see him and show him his toys. He then had Easton bring me a package that mom and I have been waiting for. It was Easton's ring bearer outfit, and we were glad to see it made it and looked adorable! He will be wearing a grey newsboy hat, white dress shirt, grey suspenders, mint blue bow tie, grey shorts, and tan Sperry shoes. I look forward to seeing him in it!

 James then gave me a card that was in our mail. It made me smile as I love e getting mail and meant so much to me. The card was filled with beautiful words. It was from Ashley and Jason and their daughter Ali. Inside they wrote a kind note to say they keep us in their thoughts and prayers and told me to stay strong. It really was special to me. It's those things that truly lift my spirit. Thank You Jason, Ashley, and Ali for the inspirational card! Your thoughtfulness and prayers mean so much and keep us strong! 😊

After my mother and father in-law headed home, my mom was very kind and helped me shave and pluck my eyebrows, something I haven't been able to do for a while. With the IV in me 24/7, it is very hard to do those everyday things as I only have one hand. So, I thank my mom for all her help and for always going out of her way to help me. I could never ask for a more wonderful mom who always makes me feel beautiful no matter what!


It was then time for my mom to leave, so she hugged me and then Easton ran to her and hugged her and said his cute little goodbye. He will get to see my parents and sister this weekend when they visit, as my sister is coming home for her birthday and last minute wedding items.

James then helped me with my shower as Easton played with my brother's old Hotwheel cars he loves. I am always grateful for all James does for me. Without him, I wouldnt be the strong woman I am and would have a more difficult time with my everyday needs. James I love and appreciate you so much!!

As I got dressed and untaped my IV wrap, there was a knock on the door. I opened it as I was near the door, and there was a purple gift bag delivered. It brought sunshine in my day, and I was curious who it could be from. Easton was eager to rip all the tissue paper out of the bag, as I opened the card. It was a neat card filled with inspiration to keep strong and know God is with me. It was from a student of mine Dylan and his family. Their kindness and thoughtfulness melted my heart. Inside was two things that excited Easton very much! First he pulled out a car. And right away ran to his daddy yelling "It's Blaze Daddy, Blaze!" Easton for one loves cars and also loves watching Blaze! His face had the biggest smile as he jumped up and down. He then pulled out a bubble gun, which he wanted to use at the very moment! We told him that he and daddy can use it this weekend, and it made him again smile big as he couldn't wait! Then I pulled out a box and opened it to find a beautiful and colorful cross! I absolutely loved it! It again reminded me to keep God at the center and all will be just fine. Thank you so much Kathy, Dylan, and family for the generous gift! Know you truly brightened my day and let me enjoy Easton's cute smile and excitement. Know you truly made his day so special! We appreciate all your prayers too! We feel them surround us each day. 😊

Another knock came to the door, and James said, "Your favorite thing!" So I knew immediately that it was time for my 2nd steroid shot. It relieved me though to see Donna with it. She wasn't my nurse today, but having her do the shot calmed me as she knew how to do it in a way without it hurting. After she did it, it was a little sore, but the pain only lasted for a couple minutes. I would take any pain for my little miracle, as he is worth everything to fight for! After all, God gave him to us through His miraculous works!

It was then time for James and Easton to head out as James had to head to work and take Easton to his buddy Josiah's house. He and Josiah would have fun and have a sleepover. Easton again was jumping up and down and couldn't wait to go. He kept telling daddy that he was ready to go and wanted daddy to put his boots on so they could go. It was too cute! Before he left, he kissed my belly to kiss Asher and said bye to him and kissed my hand. It was too sweet. He then told me goodbye and see you tomorrow mommy. I am so blessed to have my little Easton. He makes my everyday so very special! Thank you Kristina for taking care of Easton and letting him have a sleepover which he is so excited for! Going out of your way for us and giving Easton a fun evening means so much to us!😊

As I sit here on monitors with random contractions, I look forward to eating supper and relaxing this evening. I look forward to James returning from work as with him here I always feel more at peace. But no matter what I am never alone. God, Josh, and all the Angels and Saints are right here with Asher and me. They give us peace, comfort, and never stop holding our hands!

Dear Loving God, You are full of beautiful grace and mercy. You are a miraculous God who has brought us a little miracle and fighter. We can't be more blessed and this fight means the world to us. We wouldn't change a thing. Asher was given to us for a very special reason, and we love him so much! Thank You for never leaving our sides, and keeping us strong through all the bumpy roads. Asher is strong because of Your miraculous works. Our complete trust is in You, as You guide us to Your most beautiful plan! We love You above all things!

Again, we can't say enough how much  your unending thoughts, kindness, prayers, and faith in this this fight mean. You are right with us never giving up and trusting God. That is so beautiful and means more than you know! Let us stay united with God, Josh, and all the Angels and Saints in this miraculous fight! Nothing is impossible with God! We send all our praise up to Him for our little miracle!