Do Not Doubt My Child

"bear your share of hardship for the Gospel
with the strength that comes from God.....
On this account I am suffering these things;
but I am not ashamed,
for I know him in whom I have believed
and am confident that he is able to guard
what has been entrusted to me until that day"...

This morning I woke up and am a little sore on my side. I also leaked a little each time I had to use restroom. However, I woke up in joy to see my son peacefully sleeping... something I haven't seen for a long time it seems. It was hard to see him. He had to leave early, as James is dropping him off at his lil buddies house this morning as one of my good friends has graciously volunteered to watch him and give Easton his first sleepover. Easton knew where he was going and was so excited. So it melted my heart again because he is truly taking this like a champ and enjoying his summer being with mamaws, papaws, family, and friends. Before he left, he gave me a hug and kissed Asher on.my belly... which was so very sweet. He wants to be a big brother and I know he will be a great one!

Once they left, I read the daily reading for the day, and the quotes above stood out to me from it. In this life we have to bear crosses, whether they be small bumps in the road or larger mountains to climb. Jesus suffered for us in ways I could never imagine, so even our largest crosses are nothing compared to his suffering for us. Some moments I ask myself will I be able to pull through this? I trust in You God, but some moments it is so hard to sit here and not be outside or just be the mommy I want to be to Easton. When will I get to see my home again? My thoughts could keep going on and on like that, but I don't allow them to because I remind myself of all Jesus suffered, and this is nothing.  This has all occurred to God's plan for a special reason, a reason I am not fully sure of, but one I know that has a special purpose. I trust in God fully and know He is right here with me through it all, and will bring me strength and get us through this fight like a warrior.


If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt,.......James 1:5-6.... which was followed by this awesome explanation:
This is a promise that every believer in Jesus Christ can boldly claim. When we face situations that are beyond our understanding, there is a life line: God will give wisdom to those who realize their plight. Notice that first we must come to grips that we lack wisdom, then heavenly knowledge will open up. It may come through the Scripture, a “random” phone call, or a variety of ways, but when it comes we must not doubt God’s answer. He has promised to give it, but we need to receive God’s wisdom as boldly as we ask for it.

This went right along  with my thoughts today.  And it is so true, because through this time of struggle, I have experienced so many God Moments letting me know God is right beside me and will protect me. He reminds me through these moments to stay strong and wash away doubt. Through trust in Him all is possible because He is a gracious, mighty God.

I pray all of you know that you are my lifelines and God Moments. You give me strength each day to not give up, but trust and keep fighting for Asher. Thank You God for all these God Moments and being right by my side through it all. Thank You for not letting doubt take over my mind, but instead letting me have this AMAZING relationship with You. I would be weak without You. It is through these mountains, that I grow stronger and closer to You. Thank You for joining me in this fight for Asher along with Josh, all the Angels and Saints, and all Asher's prayer warriors! Your love is extravagant and that means so much to me! Amen.