When they arrived, my sister Lacy gave me a pile of photos that she has organized for the slideshow for her wedding. Looking back, made me for one realize just how fast time flies by, and for two, what a blessed childhood I had. My favorite photos were the ones with Josh with us. Every picture with him in it displayed his beautiful smile and laughter that I miss so much. I just remember being a child and thinking time was forever, and I had all the time in my life with my brother. Little did I know how fast time truly did tick by, and before I knew it he was in Heaven happy with Jesus. When you are little, you feel like you would always stay in that time with mommy cooking delicious meals and healing all our wounds, and daddy giving us mower rides, taking us to the Jasper Pool after work, and playing a game of Horse in the driveway. I still remember to the day all the times mom would take us out to eat on Fridays in the summer and I remember that first moment I learned to ride my bike without training wheels going around in circles in our garage with dad cheering me on. These photos melted my heart and made me reflect on what a treasure every aspect of your life is and to not blink through it. Now here I am living my childhood dream of teaching young children, marrying my prince charming, and being a mother to 2 very special sons. My prayer and hope is that I can give them that kind of childhood. One they love so much and one they will look back on and dream about with an endless smile.
Next, it was time to create a chalkboard decor piece for my sister's wedding. I was very excited to see it begin. Even though I wasn't able to help, I was able to use words to express how neat it was and got to see my mom and Lacy put their creative minds together to create it. I enjoy creativity and crafts, and even though I couldn't do it, it was fun to see how it was done and turned out. It was absolutely beautiful! We may have made a mossy mess all over the floor, but that doesn't matter here. These wonderful nurses and cleaning ladies enjoyed watching them create it and knew it made my day. That is all that mattered to them. Later they would clean it up for us with not one complaint. Their mission here is to make you happy and live an as normal life as possible.
My sister's next mission was to discuss what we can do in case I can't be at her wedding. More than likely I will be here, so we want to figure out how I can feel like I am there. I try not to think about it much because it is very hard knowing that I have a high chance of missing my sister's big day, the day we both dreamed of when were little. But like the quote from this morning said, you have to make the best of everything. So, our dream is to find someone to come to the hospital and alter my dress for me. I can't stand long, but should be able to enough to get measurements. Then if I am here on the day she is married, I can wear my dress and hopefully I can find someone generous enough to come here and do my hair and makeup and make me all pretty lol. Then we found a site where I can watch the whole wedding live through someone recording it. When it comes to the speech, our dream is that we can use Skype and I can deliver it from my hospital bed while all prettied up. Again this is our dream, but we feel it is very possible. We are putting full trust in God and know He will let it all fall into place in the most beautiful way. It would be one thing to miss the whole day and sit here in my normal everyday gown with frizzy bed hair and not get to see the day unfold.. esp the moment Easton walks or runs down the aisle as ring bearer, and most importantly the moment dad walks my sister down the aisel. It would be hard to sit here and wonder how my speech went when either it was heard through a recording or another individual read it for me. So if we can make our dream come true that day being that I most likely will be here, as Asher's fight is if top priority now to all of us. His life and fight matters most to us! The longer he stays in me, the better. So again, I am blessed to have a family who doesn't sit and worry. We put God at the center and trust in His path. He knows best and His plans are the most beautiful!
Once James arrived back here, my family headed out. Lacy and I weren't sure what weekend we would see each other next as her bachelorette party is this coming weekend and her wedding very near. But again I felt so blessed that I got to spend time with her and my mom and dad. Thank You God for blessing me with a heartwarming family!
I look forward to tonight as Jackie told me that most women here sleep on the couch pull out at night then go to the hospital bed during the day. I honestly thought that the hospital bed was my only home. So tonight I am going to trial and see how sleeping on the pull out is compared to this bed. You never know I may end up right back in the bed ad it isnt too bad with a tempurpedic mattress, but I am excited to see which I like better. How often do people get excited to sleep in pull outs... probably not too often, but when I received this opportunity I took it as a blessing as it brought me some variety. :-)
So overall, I had a wonderful day! I got to say it was hard to see Easton leave with his other Mamaw and Papaw earlier today and knowing I won't see him for several days. I miss his endless cute jabber, his contagious laugh, and his beautiful smile and funny expressions. I miss him throwing the ball across the room, getting fussy if his marker is taken away, celebrating with a smile and high five after he had a "big" #2 in the potty. I miss his foorsteps running across the floor, being excited to visit the hospital cafeteria, and sitting in the middle if the pull out couch and getting so excited to see it inflate up with air. But most if all, I miss his hugs and kisses and especially the sweet kisses for his little brother Asher. I know he is having fun though which means the world! I will be counting down the days until he comes back for his next visit and sleepover!
I love all of you and am so blessed to have all of you in my life. I hope you are having a great weekend! Thank you for continuing to be Asher's prayer warriors and joining us along with God, Josh, and all of the Angels and Saints in this fight for Asher! He is growing stronger each moment, and I know God is right there with him! We fully trust in His plan for Asher as He is a miraculous God who knows the best path. Thank You God for this beautiful day spent with family. Thank You for always being by my side. I trust in You with my whole heart and love You above all things! Amen.
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