Asher's blood gas levels are back to normal range all praise to God's amazing grace and your endless prayers. His oxygen level is close to his goal of the 21 range. They are going to keep him on the machine until he remains stable for a couple days, and then they think he will go back on regular respirator that he began with. Currently his jaundice levels are back to normal, so today his black mask shades and the lights were all removed. It melted our hearts to see his beautiful eyes again. James even got a peek at his eyes opening for a second. God is miraculous!
Today my dad came to visit. Easton was so excited to see his Papaw Beckman. They played, played, and played. My mom was super woman today as she shaved my hairy legs. It was a workout for both of us, but we made it work. It felt so good to dress in a new nursing dress, put on earrings, wear my wedding ring, and wear my guardian angel necklace. After pumping, it was the time I waited for all day...James and I were ready to head to the nicu and see our miracle. My parents took Easton to some stores and to get dinner, while we visited our precious Asher.
When we arrived, James was my life saver and hero once again. I want to pause and just say I have a super hero husband. Despite how tired he gets, he doesn't stop being my hands and feet. Whether it be helping me pump by washing the parts and connecting them for me, grocery shopping, cooking, helping me in and out of a seat, making sure I am ok when I walk, or like on our way into the hospital connecting his arm to mine to embrace me and give me the support I need to walk into and out of the hospital as I am still trying to gain muscle in my legs after days of bedrest and trying to straighten my back. He is my hero, and I pray he knows each day how much it means to me, even though it can be exhausting.
As we walked arm in arm inyk the hospital and to the nicu, James kept on trying to make me laugh by saying we were an old couple arm in arm walking slowly down the hall. I had a hard time holding back the laughter, but I told him to stop because laughter still hurts my stomach muscles of course.
When we saw our miracle, our hearts melted as always. We smiled as Asher was blessed with another day of strength and he looked so cute and relaxed. The doctor updated us, and we were so grateful for his kind bedside manner. He reminded us that it will be a rollercoaster ride...there will be days where we will smile big like today as Asher had a good day, and there will be days where we will sit and cry together, but I know with God right with Asher we will conquer this ride. We will never let go of Him, He is our seatbelt on this ride.
As I sat and prayed the Rosary, James placed his calming daddy hands on Asher. It is the most beautiful thing to see, what an amazing daddy he is. After I prayed, the nurse got a screen up and I pumped. As I pumped, I felt so blessed that God's gift of milk is allowing me to nourish my miracle boy. When done, James again placed his hands on our miracle, and then I talked to our little one letting him know I am here fighting with him, how much I love him, how proud I am of him, and how God is holding his hand and will never let go. It is always so hard to leave. I would love to sit and talk to him all day, but I remind myself that he is never alone as God has Asher wrapped in His loving arms.
After we left, we went home. I relaxed on the couch as I get easily run down and my legs have been really sore as I am not use to walking and my muscles need to rebuild. James cooked dinner. My parents brought Easton back and he was zonked. He actually hasn't woke up lol, and will go straight to bed. After we ate, we all relaxed a while. Then James and my dad went to visit Asher, as dad was heading back home and always looks forward to seeing his little miracle grandson. As Easton slept on the floor, mom and I watched Asher through online webcam. It again captured my heart when I saw James' daddy hands rest gently on our warrior son. I took a photo of it and posted it below. Nothing like a daddy's love.
Dear Loving God, You are merciful and miraculous. We wouldn't be where we are or have the strength we do, without You. Thank You for being our rock and seatbelt on this journey. You keep Asher wrapped up in Your loving arms where You keep him safe, never alone, and strong. Thank You for the miraculous blessings You bring us each day. Our full trust is in You as You lead us to Your beautiful plan and keep us strong throughout this ride. We love You above all things! Amen.
We can't say enough how grateful we are for all of you who are journeying on this ride with us. Your prayers are so powerful and God hears them all. Asher feels them surrounding him and they keep him amazingly strong. We continue to ask for your prayers daily for our little miracle. He has a journey to go, but with God right there and your prayers surrounding, he will conquer this and God's miraculous works will shine through him. Let us continue to hold hands in prayer united with God, Josh, and all the Angels and Saints throughout this amazing fight. Asher may be small, but he is so very strong in God's beautiful arms!
Happy 30 weeks!! God is wonderful! Love the picture:) Continued prayers for all of you! Asher is a beautiful blessing:)
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Alison, Matt, & Lisa