A Night of Contractions

"Blessed are those who trust in the Lord." Jeremiah 17:7

Yesterday evening I began to have contractions begin again. They weren't too bad at first, so I ate a light supper. After supper, they began to become consistent and grow in intensity. So my night nurse put me on IV fluids again to try to get them to slow down or subside.

As the night went on, they came closer together and became painful. It began in my lower front and wrapped around my back. After several hours of having them, my night nurse called Dr. Stadt and he told her he would be coming in.

James was still at work, so I texted him that they were strong and Dr. Stadt was coming in to check on me. So James hurried over and got here just in time to also see Dr
 Stadt. Dr. Stadt said my white blood count was low and still didn't see any symptoms of infection. He said it was probably Asher moving around with barely any cushion of fluid which was causing my contractions. He had another patient to see, so he said he'd come back and if they were still as they were he would check if I dilated and possibly deliver.

Once he left, I was exhausted. It was 3:30 am, and I was just then trying to close my eyes. As I slept, my contractions became less consistent and less intense. Dr. Stadt decided to pass on checking me again as my contractions weren't as they were an hour ago.

Therefore I slept a few hours until my high risk nurse woke me up. She asked how I was. I told her I was worn out and this was putting a toll on me. I didn't want to sound like I was done fighting, but the events over the past few days have really brought me stress, anxiety, and exhaustion. She told me that if contractions began again, we would discuss delivery again. But until then, I will have to hang on. Honestly I want Asher in me as long as possible, but I just feel at times he is ready to get out as my fluid is low, and he is getting bigger.

I am doing my best to stay strong and not let go of this fight. I know God is right here with me and will let me stand strong. I will never lose trust and hope in Him. Yes I know I am tired, anxious, etc., but I just have to keep God close to my heart, and He will carry me through. He will bring Asher into this world at the perfect timing.

A little later my dad sent me a message. He prayed the Rosary for Asher and me last night, and as he was leaving his driveway this morning to head to work, he again was praying. He looked up and saw a beautiful rainbow! What a beautiful God Moment. It made us know that God is truly here and He would keep Asher and me safe.

I had my ultrasound first thing this morning. Asher is still breech and his cord lies around his neck. Through God's miraculous hands, his heart beats strong and he wiggles around well. The fluid level is still at 2 cm which was what I thought due to contractions. I was just so happy to see Asher moving, his heart beating, and his cute pose of his legs and arms up by his head...just like what Easton always did 😊. What a precious blessing Asher is!! All praise to God!

Today I have some contractions here and there. Some are small, while others are more intense. However they aren't like last night or forming a pattern as of now. So I went ahead and ate a light breakfast and a light lunch. James picked up Easton from his sleepover at Maverick's and headed back here. It again made me smile and gave me comfort as Easton came in and went right up to my belly to give Asher a kiss and tell me hi. As my contractions still came and went, I enjoyed time with Easton. He just knows how to bring sunshine to even the toughest days.

Since my contractions weren't many, I had James help me take a calming shower as Easton watched cartoons. It felt good to just let the water hit me after a night of cramping pain. Once I was out, my nurse gave me cream as the monitor gel has caused me to have a bumpy red rash on my belly. After I got the cream on and got situated, Easton and James got ready to leave to spend some time playing at home. Easton couldn't wait because daddy was taking him to get a tricycle and helmet, plus Easton couldn't wait to use his bubble gun at home too. I can't wait to see how he does with the tricycle as it has been on our to do list for the summer. I just love seeing Easton so happy! He gave me a big hug and told me gbye and love you mommy. As always, my heart melted and how I wished I could join them as I heard them close the door and leave. However, I reminded myself how blessed I am, and staying here was a gift to keep Asher strong.

I sit here in wonder of when the contractions will build again. It is all in God's timing. Sometimes it gets tough, and I just want out of this bed and want to get through delivery. But God knows the perfect timing and I won't give up!! He has blessed us with this fight and I will  not stop fighting! Asher is our miracle, and he's worth every moment in this bed and every contraction that hits.

I want to send a very special Happy 27th Birthday wish to my best friend and sister Lacy! May God bless you with a day of joy, happiness, and fun! I love you so much!! Never know..Asher could arrive on your bday or close to it! 😊


Thank You God for keeping Asher and me strong in this fight. Last night was rough, but I felt You with me the whole time. I was very anxious, but You were there pulling me through. Keep me strong and take my anxieties away. I have nothing to fear as You are right here! I trust completely in You and know You will bring Asher into our world at the perfect time. YI have faith You will protect me and him and bless us with a safe delivery. You are miraculous and amazing! I love You above all things! Amen.

Thank all of you for riding with us in this fight. There are some tough days, but with your powerful prayers and God's beautiful grace, I pull through and Asher stays strong. Let us stay united with God, Josh, and all of the Angels and Saints in this miraculous fight. God is beautiful and we will conquer this fight through His amazing love! We love all of you and are so grateful for your prayers!