Today I woke up and was waiting for Dr. Fitzpatrick, my high risk doc, to come in. I ate my breakfast, and James and I just waited while I read my book, Miracles from Heaven, which is an amazing book by the way, and James watched TV. Before we knew it, our Dr entered. As we are nearing Saturday, he came to not only check on me and how I was doing, but to discuss with us our next critical decision to make.
If God wills Asher to make it until Saturday, he will be at 23 weeks, which means his chances of surviving are at 30%, plus odds are still high for risks. So, we have 3 choices if Asher would arrive at the 23 week point. First, remember that at the 23 week point he will receive steroids for lung and brain development which are crucial. But our choices stand here, again if he comes at the 23 week point. First, we can deliver him normally as he is small, and tell them to fight for him. However, the risks involved are high due to his last ultrasound showing him breech. So his head could get stuck which causes his chances to drop and more risks on me. 2nd we could again decide to fight and go a safer way by csection, which would increase his chances of surviving with him being breech, but again his survival rate is low and I would be going through a surgery. Lastly, we can deliver normally and decide no fighting, for example if head gets stuck, and let God take course and see if Asher can make it. So James and I have been discussing and got it down to either csection and battling, or normal delivery and letting God take course but not fighting if head gets stuck due to risks. We won't make our final decision, again this is only if Asher enters the world at the 23 week point, until tomorrow.
The reason why our decision will be tomorrow is we received a blessing today knowing we will get another ultrasound tomorrow. This ultrasound is important because we get to see baby growth, baby position, and most importantly fluid levels. We will learn if more fluid was lost, if fluid stayed the same, or if I gained any back. Our hope is for it to stay stable or increase, which an increase would be our greatest prayer and hope. Again, we are giving it to God as he knows best. From there we can make a better decision based on Asher's situation. No matter what though I trust in God's beautiful plan and know He will guide us to it.
So my greatest hope is for all of you to continue to pray and ask God to lead us to His loving will and guide us to the best decision. No matter what, I know again nothing is impossible with God, and I believe in his miraculous works! Also I know Josh and all the Angels and Saints are also right with God and us fighting for Asher.
I forgot to note, if he makes it to the 24 week point or longer, which would be definitely a beautiful gift from God, we will no matter what have a csection and fight for him as his chances of survival increase above the 50% level. Again, our full trust is in God.
So again, love you all so much! Your faith, love, support, and unending prayers mean everything to us and our keeping us strong in this fight! May God bless all of you as you are our blessings! Let's continue to fight together for Asher according to God's will.
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