Today I woke up feeling pretty well. My eyes lit up when the nurse finally told me I could take a shower and even dress in my very own clothes! That was a true gift as I hadn't took a shower since Sunday before all of this began. Believe me .. It was time to smell fresh again. Despite the quick shower I had to take with a wrapped IV, I was feeling so blessed. It again makes you realize how much we take a nice shower for granted.
After my warm shower and refreshing change to my very own comfy clothes, yes another blessing, I began watching the clock for lunch time to come. Yes partly because I could eat again, but most importantly I got to see my amazing son Easton! I never really knew how hard it was to be a mom until now. Yes, I thought I figured that out when he was first born how tough it could be to meet a newborns needs.. Later I thought it was just to keep a tidy house and be sure he was safe at all times and got a bandage for each scraped knee. But now I learned that being a mom is truly being a superhero! It is being grateful to see my Easton, get a kiss from him, and staying happy and sharing laughter and smiles with him despite the mountain I am climbing and fighting. It is just being so joyful to see him despite not being able to get down on the floor and play trucks with him, tickle him, and watch him ride his truck up and down the street. You know it hit me... The days I got home from work and Easton wanting me to play and being so tired I tried my best to just let let myself sit for just a bit, yet I just couldn't say no. Today all I wanted was to get down and play with him. Instead I am resting. Being a supermom means fighting for Asher and doing all I can to stay strong through it and for Easton. Today I truly learned that being a mom is def a super power that God gives all mom's... And indeed the greatest superpower ever.. Because I love being a mom and wouldn't change that for the world! So after a day spent with Easton, I feel so blessed.
Now I have a few more super heroes I want to mention. I have an amazing husband who hangs in there and fights with me... Who is my rock... Who goes to Barnes n Noble and gets me 2 books I can't wait to read that are all about the fight and the amazing power of God.. " Miracles from Heaven" and "Fractured Not Broken". What a blessing he is as he is indeed a super dad and super husband.
Next, to our parents. To come down to Evansville and being our rocks. What would we do without them? They are taking the greatest care of Easton and of course spoiling him with their love in every way. Also, I want to add my sister who I know is dealing with this in a strong faithful way even when she's several miles away. I couldn't ask for a better sister! They are all truly super heroes to me.
Lastly, just as I was writing this post, a God Moment happened. The phone rang.. And I heard.... " Jenna B!" . I knew right away who it was... The greatest pediatrician I know.. Dr. Ruff! After losing my brother I went through some very difficult times. Fighting with gaining weight all my life and then facing the loss of a brother at age 15... The next thing I knew I was fighting myself with bronchitis and a very high fever in the pediatric unit. That was when I met this AMAZING doctor who knows all about fight!! He fought hard for me, and it didn't end with the exit of the hospital. He fought for me and was there for me throughout my high school college years. He always brought a brightness to my world even when I was facing difficult times or illnesses. He believed in me. I to this day call him my life saver as he was a part of making me the faithful woman I am today. He was there at Easton's birth, he was there for Easton's first checkups. Honestly, one of the most difficult parts of moving to Evansville was leaving him.. Because I wanted Easton to experience his care just as I did. However, I was excited to know that he would be there for Ashers birth, as we planned it to be at Jasper. So anyways after telling Dr. Pyle.. Not sure if correct spelling, about Dr. Ruff last night, wouldn't you know he contacted Dr. Ruff. And then Dr. Ruff made my night extra special as he took his time to call me.. And once again he is fighting with me and my family for Asher. I couldn't feel more blessed. So talking of super heroes... He is one too. And I thank God he put him in my life!
Again, I love you all and appreciate all your prayers. I feel them surrounding me and it is so powerful! Where there is prayer, God Is truly there! Again, we are putting our full trust in God. He knows best and is in this fight with us.. He will lead us to Asher's beautiful will. Josh is right beside us too and fighting just as hard! How especially blessed we truly are to have these 2 super heroes! We are nearing Saturday, so God will guide us, and all I know no matter what... Nothing is impossible with God. He will grant us His beautiful will in this fight.
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